November 9, 2012


I remember taking a personality test a while ago and one of the things I lacked was laying out long term goals. It's hard for me to think about the future and setting out realistic goals that I can meet. I have those "dreams" in my heart that one day I can be this and have this...but it's not's more of a child's play. Sounds so pessimistic but I mean it in a optimistic way. For example, my "dream" is to have a little shop that makes no profit. haha. I want it to be a donation based store that sells hand-made goods and all the profit will go to organizations in need. I also want to create a photo library that caters to missionaries. In this library will have easy to read, well designed infographics on different countries that can be sold as a poster that people can hang in their homes. It will be reminder for them the needs in that country, to pray and to keep hope.
That's my dream. To combine design and missions together.

But my long term goal to get there...nada.
I don't know how to strategically layout the blueprint for this platform of a dream.

Coming back to reality and my current situation.
I need to be debt free..student loans and credit cards (they are evil!)
I haven't touched my cc's in a loong long time. I'm learning to live within my means. I created an excel and everything. Excel makes everything official :P

On another note, I finally finished my hooray cardigan. I actually completed it a two weeks ago. Now I gotta take pictures and show off my first knitted sweater! Coming soon TO your nearest blogs.

October 22, 2012


Every year in oyster bay they have the infamous oyster festival and every year I plan to go but something would come up and I would miss it. FINALLY I went! We didn't get to take any pictures of the yummy food we ate.. got too excited. :X

September 24, 2012


I turned 24 this past Wednesday.
We went to Momofuku's Noodle Bar and had some amazing pork & brisket buns with some yummy japanese ramen!
My friend is a teacher and she asked her kids to write me birthday letters filled with advices. So adorable. I love it.
For desert we went to a Japanese tea house, Cha-An. There black sesame creme brulee.. SO GOOD. No photo.. I devoured mine. There teas were just as excellent. So smooth and aromatic
Over the weekend my friends and I went to Smorgasburg | Brooklyn Flea Food Festival. We kinda went a little late but luckily we missed all the lines :) Then did a little eye shopping, popped over to Beacon's Closet and was gifted this little top. 
This past week was awesome. I am truly blessed with great family and friends.

September 19, 2012


to me! I am twenty-four years old. May not mean much to some but this is the oldest I have been. ha.

September 17, 2012

September 14, 2012


and this is how you break it
yea I totally felt guilty eating this. But our office ordered lunch for us and I couldn't refuse. To make it better I layered lots of greens..and picked the eggplant slice rather than the meaty one. :) The cleanse was good but I don't feel any better or worse. Would I do it again? Yep. Next time I want to try for 5 days. Go big or go home right?

Things I have noticed while on the cleanse:
  • I was cold.. in the office the temperature is controlled most days I usually just wear my sweater but during the cleanse I was freezing. My fingers were so cold it was hard to type. :x
  • I normally get sleepy around 2pm but during the cleanse I didn't feel groggy, bloated or sleepy. Today of course at 2pm I started to get sleepy and closed my eyes for 5 minutes ;) 
  • I broke out >:( I don't know if it was stress related or the cleanse (maybe both) but work this week was crazy. Stayed late everyday and just had to meet a lot of deadlines, make changes and be superman fast. Felt a lot of anxiety and stress.. baahh thank God its Friday. 
  • After eating the pizza I noticed how thirsty I was throughout the day.. and I don't think it settled too well. 
This cleanse taught me to take care of my body. Not only exercising but what I put in my body. I love indulging but I need to cut out a lot of that junk out. I can see how it affects my system.

September 13, 2012


I am almost done. I don't feel hungry..I just feel empty. My co-workers have been asking me "Do you feel cleansed?" um.. not really but I feel lighter. I've been browsing on food blogs and saving recipes. I know I'm torturing myself but I am really looking forward to eating. I've read that I should be careful post-cleanse. They recommend eating only fruits the first day, veggies the second and slowly incorporate legumes and..finally meat. I'm just going to play it by ear and see what happens. I want to change my lifestyle and eat more healthy.

cheers to the last day!

September 12, 2012


Yesterday my co-workers and I went on a cleanse. We ordered from Blue Print. I am currently on day 2 out of 3 and so far I feel fine. I thought I would be hungry all day and very cranky but surprisingly these juices are pretty filling and my energy level hasn't decreased. I just miss chewing on food.. but no cravings yet. My favorite jucie is P.A.M - Pineapple, Apple, and Mint. So refreshing. My least favorite is the green juice. I hate celery. And juice #6 - Cashew Milk. so. good. It's definitely worth the wait.

August 10, 2012


i fell in love with cradigan from free people. but its sold out! :T bummer. but this gives me an excuse to write my own pattern! as soon as I'm done knitting my cardigan this is my next project! currently i'm following a pattern for the hooray cardigan. it's my first time knitting a sweater and i had difficulty understanding it but i got through it and i'm half way there. (will post pictures soon)

now my next goal is to write my own pattern. i've been researching on the process and i have the zimmerman's holy grail book. so i think i can do it! :) i already figured out the knitting pattern for all i gotta do is figure out the measurements/ yoke/ and the ribbed lining. ehh
wish me luck :)

July 27, 2012

July 17, 2012


went to the met

blueberry cheesecake ice cream

meeko + me (she never faces the camera)
*sigh..shes still a cutie.

July 16, 2012


Massage coconut cream (sold in cans at grocery stores) into your hair and leave on for an hour.

EGGMix one egg with one tablespoon of water and work through your hair. Leave it on for 10 to 15 minutes.


Blend one banana, one egg, three tablespoons honey, three tablespoons milk, and five tablespoons olive oil. Spread the mixture through your hair and leave it on for 15 to 30 minutes. Or try a banana mixed with a half-teaspoon of almond oil.

AVOCADOMix one avocado, one tablespoon honey, and two tablespoons olive oil. Leave it on for 20 minutes, then rinse and shampoo. For a variation, blend the avocado with one tablespoon each of lemon juice and aloe gel, and one teaspoon sea salt.

OLIVE OILBlend two tablespoons olive oil with one egg. Leave on for 15 to 30 minutes. For a variation, try replacing the egg with a tablespoon of honey.
Some of these masks, such as the banana and avocado masks, make a large amount, and with their food content they won’t keep for long. Invite a friend or two over to share, or pass along the extra right away.

Once you’ve applied these masks to your hair, wrap your head in plastic wrap or wear a shower cap for the recommended time — your body’s heat will help the mask work. After the time is up, rinse out the mask and wash your hair with a gentle shampoo.


July 13, 2012




Now is the time to figure out what kind of work you love to do. What are you good at? What makes you feel alive? What do you dream about? You can go back to school now, switch directions entirely. You can work for almost nothing, or live in another country or volunteer long hours for something that moves you. There will be a time when finances and schedules make this a little trickier, so do it now. Try it, apply for it, get up and do it.
When I was 25, I was in my third job in as many years—all in the same area at a church, but the responsibilities were different each time. I was frustrated at the end of the third year because I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to do next. I didn’t feel like I’d found my place yet. I met with my boss, who was in his 50s. I told him how anxious I was about finding the one perfect job for me, and quick. He asked me how old I was, and when I told him I was 25, he told me I couldn’t complain to him about finding the right job until I was 32. In his opinion, it takes about 10 years after college to find the right fit, and anyone who finds it earlier than that is just plain lucky. So use every bit of your 10 years: try things, take classes, start over.
Part of being a healthy, mature adult is learning to live within your means all the time, even if that means going without things you think you need, or doing work you don’t love for a while to be responsible financially. The ability to adjust your spending according to your income is a skill that will serve you your whole life.
There will be times when you have more money than you need. In those seasons, tithe as always, save like crazy, and then let yourself buy fancy shampoo or an iPad or whatever it is you really get a kick out of. When the money’s not rolling in, buy your shampoo from the grocery store and eat eggs instead of steak—a much cheaper way to get protein. If you can get the hang of living within your means all the time—always tithing, never going into debt—you’ll be ahead of the game when life surprises you with bad financial news.
I know a lot of people who have bright, passionate dreams but who can’t give their lives to those dreams because of the debt they carry. Don’t miss out on a great adventure God calls you to because you’ve been careless about debt.
Now is also the time to get serious about relationships. And “serious” might mean walking away from a dating relationship that’s good but not great. Some of the most life-shaping decisions you’ll make during this time will be about walking away from good- enough, in search of can’t-live-without. One of the only truly devastating mistakes you can make in this season is staying with the wrong person even though you know he or she is the wrong person. It’s not fair to that person, and it’s not fair to you.
“Who are you dating?” “Do you think he’s the one?” “Have you looked at rings?” It’s easy to be seduced by the romance- dating-marriage narrative. We confer a lot of status and respect on people who are getting married—we buy them presents and consider them as more adult and more responsible.
But there’s nothing inherently more responsible or more admirable about being married. I’m thankful to be celebrating my 10th wedding anniversary this summer, but at the same time, I have a fair amount of friends whose marriages are ending—friends whose weddings we danced at, whose wedding cake we ate, whose rings we oohed-and-aahed over but that have been taken off fingers a long time ago.
Some people view marriage as the next step to happiness or grown-up life or some kind of legitimacy, and in their mad desire to be married, they overlook significant issues in the relationship.
Ask your friends, family members and mentors what they think of the person you’re dating and your relationship. Go through premarital counseling before you are engaged, because, really, engagement is largely about wedding planning, and it’s tough to see the flaws in a relationship clearly when you’re wearing a diamond and you have a deposit on an event space.
I’m kind of a broken record on this. My younger friends will tell you I say the same things over and over when they talk to me about love, things like, “He seems great— what’s the rush?” and, “Yes, I like her—give it a year.” And they’ve heard this one a million times: “Time is on your side.” Really, it is.
While twentysomethings can sometimes spend a little too much energy on dating and marriage, they probably spend too little energy on friendships and family. That girl you just met and now text 76 times a day probably won’t be a part of your life in 10 years, but the guys you lived with in college, if you keep investing in them, will be friends for a lifetime. Lots of people move around in their 20s, but even across the distance, make an effort to invest in the friendships that are important to you. Loyalty is no small thing, especially in a season during which so many other things are shifting.
Family is a tricky thing in your 20s—to learn how to be an adult out on your own but to also maintain a healthy relationship with your parents—but those relationships are really, really worth investing in. I have a new vantage point on this now that I’m a parent. When my parents momentarily forget I’m an adult, I remind myself that someday this little boy of ours will drive a car, get a job and buy a home. I know that even then it will be hard not to scrape his hair across his forehead or tell him his eyes are looking sleepy, and I give my parents a break for still seeing me as their little girl every once in a while.
Twenty-five is also a great time to get into counseling if you haven’t already, or begin round two of counseling if it’s been a while. You might have just enough space from your parents to start digging around your childhood a little bit. Unravel the knots that keep you from living a healthy, whole life, and do it now, before any more time passes.
Some people believe emotional and psychological issues should be solved through traditional spiritual means—that prayer and pastoral guidance are all that’s necessary when facing issues of mental health. I disagree. We generally trust medical doctors to help us heal from physical ailments. We can and should trust counselors and therapists to help us resolve emotional and psychological issues. Many pastors have no training in counseling, and while they care deeply about what you’re facing, sometimes the best gift they can give you is a referral to a therapist who does have the education to help you.
Faith and counseling aren’t at odds with one another. Spiritual growth and emotional health are both part of God’s desire for us. Counseling—like time with a mentor, personal scriptural study, a small group experience and outside reading—can help you grow, and can help you connect more deeply with God.
So let your pastor do his or her thing, and let the person who has an advanced degree in mental health help you with yours.
One of the most valuable relationships you can cultivate in your 20s is a mentoring relationship with someone who’s a little older, a little wiser, someone who can be a listening ear and sounding board during a high change season. When I look back on my life from 22 to 26, some of the most significant growth occurred as a direct result of the time I spent with my mentor, Nancy.
The best way to find a mentor is to ask, and then to work with the parameters they give you. If someone does agree to meet with you, let it be on their terms. Nancy and I met on Wednesdays at 7 in the morning. I guarantee that was not my preference. But it was what worked for her life, so once a month I dragged myself out of the house in what felt to me like the dead of night. It also helps to keep it to a limited-time period. It’s a lot to ask of someone to meet once a month until the end of time. But a one-year commitment feels pretty manageable for most people, and you can both decide to sign on for another year or not, depending on the connection you’ve made.
Twenty-five is the perfect time to get involved in a church you love, no matter how different it is from the one you were a part of growing up. Be patient and prayerful, and decide that you’re going to be a

Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming.
person who grows, who seeks your own faith, who lives with intention. Set your alarm on Sunday mornings, no matter how late you were out on Saturday night. It will be dreadful at first, and then after a few weeks, you’ll find that you like it, that the pattern of it fills up something inside you.
Going out into “the real world” after high school or college affects more than just your professional life. Where once you had free time, a flexible schedule and built-in community, now you have one hour for lunch, 10 days max to “skip” work and co-workers who are all over the place in age, stage of life and religion.
In those first few years of work-life, it’s easy to get too busy, too stressed and too disconnected to keep up spiritual habits you may have built in school. Figuring out how to stay close to God and to grow that relationship through activities and disciplines that complement your new schedule is critical for life now—and those habits will serve you for years to come.
One of the best routines I adopted in my 20s was a monthly solitude day. In addition to my daily prayer time, I found I lived better if once a month I took the time to pray, read, rest and write, to ask myself about the choices I’d made in the past month and to ask for God’s guidance in the month to come. Some of the most important decisions I made in that season of life became clear as a result of that monthly commitment.
Give of your time and energy to make the world better in a way that doesn’t benefit you directly. Teach Sunday school, build houses with Habitat for Humanity, serve at a food pantry or clean up beaches on Saturdays.
It’s easy to get caught up in your own big life and big plan in your 20s—you’re building a career, building an identity, building for a future. Find some place in your life where you’re building for a purpose that’s bigger than your own life or plan.
When you’re serving on behalf of a cause you’re passionate about, you’ll also connect in a deep way with the people you’re serving with, and those connections can yield some of your most significant friendships.
When you serve as a volunteer, you can gain experience for future careers. Instead of, for example, quitting your banking job to pursue full-time ministry, volunteer to lead a small group, and see where it goes from there. Use volunteer experiences to learn about causes and fields you’re interested in, and consider using your vacation time to serve globally.
If you can master these things, you’re off to a really great start: eggs, soup, a fantastic sandwich or burger, guacamole and some killer cookies. A few hints: The secret to great eggs is really low heat, and the trick to guacamole is lime juice—loads of it. Almost every soup starts the same way: onion, garlic, carrot, celery, stock.
People used to know how to make this list and more, but for all sorts of reasons, sometime in the last 60 or so years, convenience became more important than cooking and people began resorting to fake food (ever had GU?), fast food and frozen food. I literally had to call my mom from my first apartment because I didn’t know if you baked a potato for five minutes or two hours.
The act of feeding oneself is a skill every person can benefit from, and some of the most sacred moments in life happen when we gather around the table. The time we spend around the table, sharing meals and sharing stories, is significant, transforming time.
Learn to cook. Invite new and old friends to dinner. Practice hospitality and generosity. No one cares if they have to sit on lawn furniture, bring their own forks or drink out of a Mayor McCheese glass from 1982. What people want is to be heard and fed and nourished, physically and otherwise—to stop for just a little bit and have someone look them in the eye and listen to their stories and dreams. Make time for the table, and you’ll find it to be more than worth it every time.
This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can see very clearly two kinds of people. On one side, people who have used their 20s to learn and grow, to find God and themselves and their dreams, people who know what works and what doesn’t, who have pushed through to become real live adults. Then there’s the other kind, who are hanging onto college, or high school even, with all their might. They’ve stayed in jobs they hate, because they’re too scared to get another one. They’ve stayed with men or women who are good but not great, because they don’t want to be lonely. They mean to find a church, they mean to develop intimate friendships, they mean to stop drinking like life is one big frat party. But they don’t do those things, so they live in an extended adolescence, no closer to adulthood than when they graduated.
Don’t be like that. Don’t get stuck. Move, travel, take a class, take a risk. There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming. Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either. Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal.
Ask yourself some good questions like: “Am I proud of the life I’m living? What have I tried this month? What have I learned about God this year? What parts of my childhood faith am I leaving behind, and what parts am I choosing to keep? Do the people I’m spending time with give me life, or make me feel small? Is there any brokenness in my life that’s keeping me from moving forward?”
Now is your time. Walk closely with people you love, and with people who believe God is good and life is a grand adventure. Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned.
Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep traveling honestly along life’s path.


July 12, 2012


rolled eyes..its just irks me when I just see the whites of the eyes... weird huh..